I’ve decided to share with you guys some more things, more than just stories or poems. Here’s a private message I sent to a girl I had fallen for a couple years ago, on a forum – we had a long-distance relationship that ultimately failed. It’s going to be a bit out of context for you guys, but I tried to choose one that would be enough of a standalone for you to understand it.
I’m sorry, for the little ‘tantrum’ I had early in my other reply. It was all probably a social miscommunication, and it’s entirely my fault. I don’t want you to be upset or hurt or anything, but if you are/were, please don’t tell me “It’s okay” or “It’s fine”. You’re a wondrous person and I love talking to you and we mesh together and my heart goes out for you and I think you’re pretty and lovely and sweet and determined to do things once you set your mind on them. I could edit out what I posted in my other reply, and just replace it with me calmly asking something about what happened accidentally to cause you to lose some of your message. But I won’t, because that would essentially be lying. And I won’t lie to you. I won’t. I want to keep the balance, the great thing we’ve had, and not let it go at all just because I’m a stupidhead. Again, I’m sorry. I just…
I just feel the tiniest bit better, knowing I could apologize when it’s needed. It hasn’t been needed form me in so long, and you’re special to me, so of course you’d be the one to get my heartfelt apology…. You know what? I’m being conceited. An apology isn’t where you make yourself feel better, but offer your head on a pike to the other person. And so I give you my head. *passes pike forward*
Sincerely,
Adam.
And that’s it. I’m not trying to tell you something really important with this post, just to give you a look into who I was back then. And maybe I’m similar now. 🙂
Something about me: My name is Adam, and I used to be a lot more dramatic than I am now. Take care, dear readers! Thank you for giving me some of your time.
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